Bleh

Okay again not a good deviant it's been forever since I've been on here but, these past few months have been none the less depressing and frustrating. I had a little breakdown after bottling everything up for so long let's say that EVERYTHING TINY THJNG CANE OUT!!

But, after 4 years of being depressed but, past six months turning to worst suicidal thought came and got so intense that i wanted to do it I went to the doctor and was diagnosed with MDD ( major depressive disorder ) isn't that lovely! The medicine helped but k was forced to stop taking it for awhile until I was on the verge of freaking out but, it'll hopefully get better! This summer wasn't As lovely as I expected it to be. 😢 I thought it would've been great but it was spent in arguments depression and doctors visits which sucks I didn't even get to enjoy summer and now it's almost over. Debating on going back to school for medical transcriptionist or something totally opposite graphic design haha but either will keep me busy in winter so that I don't get crippled emotionally again